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I've got nothing much to say. I'm feeling a bit mad right now, don't bother asking why. I managed to crap on the account statement though so that's the good part. School today was fine. Well "school" in a way. I'll be going to Jess's house to play frisbee again tomorrow.

Sorry, I'm in no mood to write anything.

doom

I AM SO DEAD.

I have to write an English club report AND I lost the treasurer's log book.

i am so dead.

d-e-a-d.

ultimate

So I'm feeling a bit hyper-serious if that is even possible and found a really good handbook for UF. Here's the link: Ultimate Frisbee Handbook. it is awesome by the way, it has tips, exercises, everything. Really good if you're a frisbee player. :)
I hope if you're reading and am a player, you should come for the tournament in MPSJ on the 15th. I'm sure it'll be loads of fun. Or come and support your school team or your friends (namely us). Nothing much to say apart from that.

nite.

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accross

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE

the one below is the ORI version of the one above:

giggles

Beware I am bordering between laughter and giggling. Only Melanie would understand my "emotions" right now so I shall not divulge into that matter.

Today Jessica came over for awhile from 10.45am until 1.35pm. Sadly she's still upset about her breakup and I can't blame her. I'd probably be wailing in my room as I am emotionally unstable. But we managed to bully Amil on the phone. Oh right, we're competing in the ULTIMATE FRISBEE competition on the 15th of next month. :) I hope we'll do better than before, hah. I'm going to school tomorrow to practice with the "team".

I baked muffins today. They were quite good and Jess took some home. Enchanted opens today too. I wish I could watch it with the COF-ians but sadly I cannot as no one is free at the right time and all. AND I can't go out with JUST my friends. Probably watching it with my brother who I am going to bully to go with me.

I have nothing much to write seeing as I'm a giggling mess right now. Oh Melly-Welly, where are you when I need a giggling partner?

STUFF

Sometimes "stuff" happens and changes everything. What if you had a chance to erase everything? Would you take it?

random tagline from a new story I will be writing and posting on FictionPress. :) Good night my best friends and people I don't know.

hrm

I need a new blogskin. I know, I love to change but hey, I really want a new blogskin. Hopefully, I'll find a nice one soon enough. Ta-ta.

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Okay honestly I have nothing to blog about. Maybe I should just go buy a pot and sink my head in it. Fine, fine, I'll just insert nonsense about random stuff. I think I might not change my blogskin. It looks quite nice actually. and partly because all the new blogskins in the Blogskins.com place are so boring. Alright, they're not ugly but nothing screams "me". I wish I could make my own blogskin; life would be better that way.

Anyway, I've sorted out my tuition next year. Form Four is coming so fast and its scary really. I mean, what if we aren't able to keep up with everything. Juggling after school activities, friends, school work, tuition and well, work is going to be tough. scary.

new topic: well, Wae (who's socks I rock) has convinced me to put up ads on my blog. so HELLO to the thingy on the side that has ads coming and going. I've seen a lot of that on Malaysiakini blogs but never bothered. Now I know what it is. Oh and I've got a link to SPCA right below it so YAY for SPCA.

I am bored. I am going to watch TV and waste my life away. KA BOOM.

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thought of the day

28th of November


Challenging yourself to accomplish something worthwhile that you really want to achieve is a positive way to build self-esteem.
Ultimately, you are responsible for your own self-esteem. Your head start is the abilities with which you were born and your family's nurture. Your job is to build on that.

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Try listening to the WORDS in Britney's "overprotected" and well, hrm... how strange, I can relate. weirder things have happened i guess.

today

27th of November 2007.

Today was a good day. I managed to wake up earlier than usual which is a good thing since I went to school to help Pn Chieng to do paperwork again. Esther and I created a "new invention". It consists of a paper clip and string. :D You see we were suppose to tie the discipline forms of each class with a woolly string that kept breaking apart. I was so frustrated trying to get the string through the holes and said it would have been better if we could use a metal string tied to a needle. Then Esther jumps up and says she has paper clips. so we used that instead.

I had to go back at 11 (we were there from 9) but Esther stayed until 12.30 and did the rest by herself. I salute that girl. Maybe she'll get head prefect next year. I just came back from piano class and am talking to Hellme *Broken* (well that's what his name says) and .-=_=`"Ň@ŧŠŭMї--->.<---- aka Luvena.

I pissed Helmi off. haha. :D okay, is it good that I'm happy about it? Wae got her (edited:) Russian diamond earrings from her super rich boyfriend. Lucky girl. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST AWESOME-EST TWIN SISTER THAT I WOULDN'T MIND THE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS IN THIS SENTENCE.
You rock socks
You are one of a kind
and
You are my best-est twin sister ever.
happy birthday to Wae/ Suan Li/ Shuan-anne-anne-anne-anne-anne-Li.

:D

....

Crap happens a lot nowadays. First off, I messed up my best friend's birthday. Don't you just love me? My parents won't let me go to Sunway with Wae because there would be no adult supervision. I CANNOT go out with friends (without the aforesaid adult supervision) until AFTER Form 5. Great. Chances are, none of them will be around after that. I am sorry I messed up your birthday. I'm sorry I made it crappy. I really am.

And my other best friend broke up with her boyfriend. Life rocks, doesn't it? That was sarcasm mind you. I hate everything right now. Nothing is going right.

I AM SO ASHAMED

Well today was a strange day for me. First off, no Enchanted on Monday. Somehow, its been moved to Thursday, the opening date I mean. I'll most probably be watching it with my mom and Lola. hahaha. The second thing is more important and I shall attempt to do it in a third person's point of view:-

Grace woke up today and she had a scary dream. She dreamt that her mother passed away and she was living with the Phantom of the Opera (not that she minded that part) and her brother. Grace was really upset about that dream. :( Anyway, she soon went down to take a bath and after that she found that she lost her Franciscan crucifix and Miraculous Medal which she normally wears. Grace was troubled by that too.

Grace then followed her mother and brother to the airport to fetch Grace's Lola (grandmother in Tagalog). Then Grace went for lunch and went home. Tiny wasn't happy to see a stranger in the house. At 5.45pm Grace went for mass with her family and saw David serving at the altar. Grace's mouth actually fell open seeing him there and tried her best not to look at him during mass, although he was staring at her. Grace felt really awkward. You see, this silly girl was really sure she was over him and that she wants to be a religious sister. She was very angry at God all through mass for confusing her and asked Him to tell her what He REALLY wants her to be.

She then sent a message to her twin sister who is not actually related biologically but personality-ish-wise about how troubled she was. Her twin told her to relax and take it calmly. After dinner, Grace went home to find a message from David on her mother's cellphone. Sadly and much to her discomfort, she was happy about it. She sent him a message back telling him that it was nice to see him at mass.

THEN, she felt UTTERLY embarrassed when she got the reply "Oh, I didn't see you there. I would have said Hi. Sorry." She had been so sure he was looking at her. She was so sure he was looking at her those other times too.. but now, it wasn't real!! Now Grace wants to bury her head in the ground and never come out. But she tried to prevail and made small talk. Soon enough, Grace realised that David is an angel and she's lucky to know him. He's dream (which is close to her own) is to help the people in the old folks home and orphanage. Grace feels that this is probably because he knows how it feels to lose a parent but she didn't tell him that. She did praise him and tell her about how she wants to work with the sick or dying. They talked for awhile and then Grace went to her room and found her crucifix and miraculous medal under her pillow.

Sitting on her bed, she came to a conclusion. She is silly and God was truly talking to her today. She was too proud and too dense to realise it. And, her prayer for guidance was granted. So now, Grace thinks she is officially over David as he himself as given her a cure for her stupidity.

and well, its not hard to forget him when she'll hardly ever be going for mass in Assumption Church anymore.

[end of third person]

I am officially embarrassed now. Seriously, I am so silly. :/ well then, I guess, he never did like me at all. heh. one punch for my ego. I guess it (the ego) needed some calming down anyway.

CONCLUSION OF THE DAY: Guys will never like Grace because she is too egotistical to be liked.

the end.

thanksgiving

Jean Louis Gerome Ferris, The First Thanksgiving

truly

Happy Thanksgiving.

Not that we celebrate it here in Malaysia. Do you what Thanksgiving is about? According to my good friend and pet sister, Catherine, Thanksgiving is when the first settlers of America learned how to survive being taught by the natives, the Red Indians. And somehow they ended up eating turkey. Hahaha.

In the United States, Thanksgiving or Thanksgiving Day is an annual one-day holiday to give thanks, traditionally to God,^[1][2][3] for the things one has at the end of the harvest season. It is celebrated on the fourth Thursday of November (i.e. the Thursday falling between November 22 and November 28). The period from Thanksgiving Day to New Year's Day is often collectively referred to as the "holiday season," and the holiday itself is often nicknamed Turkey Day.

That what I got off Wikipedia. I guess its almost the same. So well, its not OUR holiday but we can still be thankful for so many things, right? So what are you thankful for? Here's my list which I also posted on the TeenTalk forum:

I may not be American but I am grateful and thankful for many things in my life. Namely, (in no particular order except for the first)

God who has loved me and guided me although I may stray away.
My family who has not broken although we've been through so many hardships.
All the priests and religious who have inspired me to think of my vocation in a different way.
My dear friends, those who are here and those who have moved on, I love all of you dearly and treasure you always, as I do all of you here on Teen Talk Revival.
My dogs, those who have gone and the two which are still here, for making me laugh and for all the kisses.
My struggles for they have made me stronger and have taught me to hope.
Music as it brings joy and light to my life.
For all the inspirational people and works that have brought beauty and enjoyment to brighten my life.

I thank God for everything, for in everything I find Him.

And thank you for reading too ;) God bless you and have a blessed, thankful day!

Princess Giselle

Enchanted- That's how you know.
And believe or not, its Amy Adams ACTUALLY singing. She plays the Princess.

give thanks

I am Melancholic, which means I keep to myself and rarely share except with truly close friends. I'm also very pessimistic, awkward, usually moody, secretive and has trust issues. But the good thing about being Melancholic and ISFP (in the Jung Typology Personality Test), I'm hopefully aware of my surroundings.

Sometimes we move through life so fast, we forget to be thankful for the smallest of things. Like a hug from our parents, a smile(an honest kind one, not a lecherous one) from a stranger, the morning sun on skin, the cool breeze on our faces, the laughter of our friends, the beautiful symphony of nature. All of this; the world, the people we love, our own lives could be taken away in an instant. But, do we stop to think of how wonderful the Creator has made the world for us, how gracious He is for giving us this world to enjoy and to experience?

Why are we so caught up in aiming for riches while the glory of the reflection of light on a dew drop is ignored? Can we stop and be thankful, sing praises to Him who has given so much beauty to this world for all of us to enjoy? Take time to enjoy the world, to actually 'live' and not let our most treasured present pass us by. Life is WORTH living, as the late Fulton Sheen once said (he won a few Oscars for his TV series on that topic, mind you).

But do we live? Sure we are breathing, sure we are eating and going through all the life processes. BUT are we truly savoring every moment? Are we taking it all in and feeling thankful? Most people don't last through a day, some babies are born dead. [ :( ] Yet, here we are forgetting to be happy that we are alive to witness to the glory of God in nature. Do we forget? I believe so. I believe that we are running at a pace so quickly that we forget that its not the destination that TRULY counts, but how you get there.

Take time today to touch the trees, to turn off all distractions and just live in the beautiful Earth that was given to us to look after. Who knows? You might find something new to be thankful for.

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Enchanted next week shall be watched by Wae, Mel and me without Jess as her swimming classes prohibit her from going. (okay that sounded so serious). Wae will be 15 on the 26th of November. Yay! Oh right, PMR results are suppose to be out on the 22/23 of December as Wae said. I'm still so nervous about it. Imagine if I fail a subject! Imagine if I don't get all A's. Imagine if I don't get into Pure Science next year. Imagine if ... okay , I'll stop.

I've still got a demented flu. I hate flu. I was suppose to go swimming today but my stupid flu had to still be .. flu-ing. Did that make sense? Nothing interesting has happened lately. My life is so boring but I have to be grateful for that. If my life was interesting, I'm afraid it would be for all the wrong reasons. I'm going to bathe. I know, too much information

tanon 2

Lola didn't make it today. But her bed did. Well the one we bought for her. I'm sick now. My brother's fault. He made me sick. I've got this demented flu. Oh and I nearly blew up the computer with my printer installing skills. hahaha.

Thanks to Melly-Welly for the CUTE emoticons. I love them. :D
So much for beneficial posts!!
And I'm officially HIGH on country music. I know, I'm weird.

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hrm

Hah. So right now I'm still doing my dad's paperwork. I'm getting paid for all this. Well sorta. I'm getting paid RM100 which goes into my bank account. So yes I am getting paid but now with the cash out front. Oh right, next Monday which is Wae's birthday (the last COF-ian to be born and turn fifteen) so we'll (Jess, Mel, Wae and me) be going to Sunway Pyramid (this is going to be my 3rd time) to watch Enchanted. Hopefully I'll work out the kinks and get tickets!! [Jumps up and down with joy] haha.

Thanks to Wae I'm laughing a lot because of Monty Python. Even my mom laughed at the silliness of it all. I love British humour. I think I'll probably be pursuing medicine in Britian since you don't need to have a basic degree. Well I'm not actually too sure. Harvard is still the best. Aargh. I want to be smart. Its so HARD to be smart. Life is so unfair that way. Yet, if life was smooth flowing, nothing would truly be worth it right?

Oh and watch this trailer. I guess its a sort of reality based thing. Quite interesting though it is rated R. Go to Youtube and look up Rocket Science movie.

I hope you're having a good night's sleep while I slave away in front of this computer. My Lola is coming tomorrow. Great. Bye all!

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new

I'm going to try something new. Making posts that actually make sense. I hope its not too hard. I'd like to admit that I got inspiration to make "useful" posts from a good friend of mine, Serena who will be going to World Youth Day next year! :D

So thanks for bearing with my nonsense all this while and do leave a comment in the cbox which is dying since hardly anyone says anything in it. And I mean NO SPAMMING.

Good day

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music?

Sometimes I wonder what people see in music nowadays. Lets take the female "artists". Most of them are just girls dressed half-naked wiggling like jelly on the screen and their vocals are covered up by loud music. Examples? Take Britney Spears. Or Che Nelle (the pride of Malaysia). Perhaps I don't give credit to those who can ACTUALLY sing. Take Nelly Furtado who was an angel and now comes back as Miss Promiscuous Girl. Fine I admit there are those who can like Jojo, Carrie Underwood, LeAnn Rimes, Jordin Sparks, Christina Aguilera and Emmy Rossum (yes I know her songs sound like Enya but heck she has a voice!). Sadly they're not too popular and when they are its usually because of some really wack-o stunt. And others throw themselves into such positions that make their bodies "shine" and not their actual vocal capabilities.

The men. Don't get me started on most of the "rappers". Okay fine, you get credit for speaking so fast. But please STOP using women as objects and stop insinuating degrading things. Please what can "It's gettin' hot in here (so hot), So take off all your clothes" mean apart from the actual and OBVIOUS statement. That was Nelly by the way. Let's see who can actually sing in the men's category. Well here are those who pass in my opinion: Chris Daughtry, Clay Aiken, Ruben Studdard, Shane Ward, Paul Potts and a few others. I guess the musical taste in the world is slowly diminishing. I've never truly liked the "pop" music of the world nowadays. Gregorian Chants are so much better compared to most of what you hear now.

Perhaps we need to rethink what we listen to. Then again, everyone feels differently right?

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Truly I see how complicated it all is. I don't know much about life nor do I know much about those I associate with. You think you know someone/something and then end up being proven 100% wrong. Truly I wonder why life happens like this. Confusing is it not?

Song: September
Done by: Sisqo and Vitamin C
O.S.T: Get Over It
Originally done by: Earth, Wind and Fire.

I know, I'm such an oldies girl but hey, oldies rock sock okay?

...

Next year we'll be in Form Four. How fast can time go? Its scary really. Maybe its just me or is time flying super fast now? Today was the last day of Sunday School. I'll miss my friends in Assumption but hey, Divine Mercy can't be too bad right? (rolls eyes)

Anyway. I've got nothing to say.

give and take...

Give and take.

Jess,
you've given in a lot of times. I guess this is your chance to shine and to be who you really want to be. Don't change back, we'll never forgive ourselves. You're still our best friend. Nothing will change that. We just wanted to speak our minds, to tell you how we feel. No best friend will lie and say you're the same. You're different and we must accept that difference.

I must say I'm proud that you want us to stop teasing you. You want us to believe that you can be who you are. I'm glad you're finally standing up for yourself. I've always hope you would. And of course you didn't see it, of course you were blind to it. I mean, people normally notice first right? Or we wouldn't be your best friends.

Go ahead and be who you really are Jess. We never want to hold you back. Just give us time and patience. Don't run away. You're our best friend and we'll try to understand you, we will understand you. It must be tough hiding all the time but now you don't have to. You can stand up and be who you truly are. None of us are going to step in your way.

Be yourself because its you you have to please. Not us. Don't take this like an insult or anything. We love you and care for you.

Just understand.

:)

look up the lyrics. Its "The Boys I meet" by Carrie Underwood. Its funny. :D

More Boys I Meet – Carrie Underwood

This boy here wants to move too fast
He's sees my future as having a past
Well, I don't think so
I don't think so
That boy there, well he's playing the fool
He thinks he's funny and he thinks he's cool
Well, I don't think so
I don't think so

Cheap date, bad taste
Another night gone to waste
Talking about nothing in so many words
It's not like I'm not trying
Cause I'll give anyone a shot once...

And I close my eyes
And I kiss that frog
Each time finding the more boys I meet
The more I love my dog

Here's the guy, thinks he's bad to the bone
He wants to pick me up and take me home
Well, I don't think so
I don't think so

Cage fights, Playstation
X-games, Raider Nation
Oversized pants with an ego to match
It's not like i'm not trying
Cause I'll give anyone a shot once...

And I close my eyes
And I kiss that frog
Each time finding the more boys I meet
The more I love my dog

Why can't they be like the ones that mean everything to me
Warm and loyal, open and friendly?

It's not like I'm not trying
Cause I'll give anyone a shot once...

I close my eyes
And I kiss that frog
Each time finding the more boys I meet
The more I love my

I close my eyes
And I kiss that frog
Each time finding the more boys I meet
The more I love my dog
The more I love my dog

hey

If you want take this quiz:

Quiz (four temperaments)

when you get there.. scroll down until you see four pictures. Get to the fourth picture and look for this line:

'See the temperament test to discover your dominant classic temperament and to learn more about your fundamental dispositions, your bright side, your dark side, and some things you need to know in order to make the best of who you are.3'

click the link okay? thanks


I got Melancholic So tell me what you get okay? I'd like to check it up after that. thanks. :)

i wonder

You change and I change. All I ever write about it change. But change is who we are, change is what makes us, change is nature. Life can be so confusing when things change especially when people you love change. But we must step in and decide whether we want to accept the changes or just walk away.

We are given choices in life, we are given a guide. No matter what, we have to be given a chance to be true to ourselves. Whether in choosing friends, whether in life or love. I don't want my loved ones to change but they can't help it. They have to. Its a sort of coursing through your veins, its a sort of fire in you that needs to be expressed. People may not accept this flame because we get burnt.

Do you understand that you've grown? That though you deny it, you hurt others too. That you aren't the only victim here? I know you feel like the world is against you but sometimes, you don't see that you are doing the same to us. To me. Can't you just realise that you are not the same person anymore, that you've morphed into a different being? We try to accept you but you don't have to push it. Don't ask too much from us.

I'm doing my best to stand all of this. I should have seen it coming, really. But sometimes, you hide from whats staring at you in the face. I'm sorry that we hurt you. I'm sorry for the words I've said. I'm sorry I don't understand you. I'll try. I'll try and do my best to finally settle with the new person that you are. Because I know if I change, I want you to accept me too.

:(

BiaB

Baby in a Box

tanon

I got this from Wae's blog.

About Me :

Eye Color: dark brown.
Hair Color: dark brown.
Height: yeah sure, make fun of my height. I'm short, happy? (159cm)
Favorite Color: Blue
Screen Name: Grace (yes, i am 100% imaginative)
Favorite Band: Rascal Flatts
Favorite Movie: Amazing Grace
Favorite Show: EWTN
Your Car: none.
Your Hometown: Kota Kinabalu/ Tawau
Your Present Town: Subang Jaya
Your Crush's First Name: Tanon. HAHAHAHA. I don't have a crush. Tanon is a life force, btw.
Your Grade: form 3.
Your Style: syok sendiri! HAHAHHAHA. -.-


Have You Ever :

Sat on your rooftop?: that's be nice but no.
Kissed someone in the rain?: nopey-nope-nope
Danced in a public place?: maybe.. why...
Smiled for no reason?: don't get me started
Laughed so hard you cried?: yup
Written a song?: yup
Sang to someone for no reason?: yup. to my dogs. and to irritate my brother and friends.
Performed on a stage?: yup
Talked to someone you don't know?: when you're a receptionist, you have to
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: yup
Made out in a theatre?: nope
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: never in my life have i gone roller skating. i can barely stand on my own feet!!

Who was the last person to . . *

Say HI to you?: that patient.. Zulkifli something
Tell you, I love you?: Catherine
Kiss you?: Tiny
Hug you?: People don't hug me. I HUG PEOPLE! (insert evil laughter here)
Tell you BYE?: erm. me tak tahu. Jessics Lee I think.
Write you a note?: this lady who told me to pass it on but I didn't.
Taken your photo?: TAK TAHU.
Call your cell phone?: first off, i have 0 cell phone.
Buy you something?: my mom. LUNCH! lol
Go with you to the movies?: my whole family.
Sing to you?: ronnikins aka aaron aka my brother. the 'word' song.
Write a poem about you?: my brother. well, one verse. 3 years ago.
Touch you?: my dad. he was pushing me to cross the road. -___-

When's the last . . *

Time you laughed?: today!
Time you cried?: don't know.
Movie you watched?: Hot Fuzz
Joke you told?: I'm a walking joke.
Song you've sang?: a self composed one i don't remember anymore.
Time you've looked at the clock?: just a second ago.
Drink you've had?: avocado blend
Number you've dialed?: aaron
Book you've read?: R.B.
Food you've eaten?: nothing. dieting. lol. okay, avocado. -.-
Flavor of gum chewed?: chewing gum is bad with an empty stomach.
Shoes you've worn?: those pink-yellow ones.
Store you've been in?: Summit. -.-"
Thing you've said?: 'berdengkur'

Can You . . *

Write with both hands?: BADLY
Whistle?: can
Blow a bubble?: i fink so
Roll your tongue in a circle?: yup
Cross your eyes?: yup
Touch your tongue to your nose?: if i flatten my nose
Dance?: HAHAHAHAHHAA
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: no.
Speak a different language?: ya. the TANON language
Impersonate someone?: my dog. hahahah. -___-
Prank call people?: NEVER.
Make a card pyramid?: once.
Cook anything?: that depends on what your definition of COOK is.

Finish The Line.. *

If I were a ...: princess, i'd be forever SINGLE
I wish ...: i was taller
kidnapping...: tiny and sailing her in a papaya would be FUN!!!
So many people don't know ...: that i use to take ballet
My heart is: made out of tissue (paper). hahaha

:D

alternate version with movie scenes:



Ever, ever after
Carrie Underwood
OST of Enchanted, 2007

a fairy tale come true.. :) I'm DEFINITELY watching Enchanted.

emmy

some of you may not like this song but I do. It has a actually depth and meaning compared to most of the songs you hear on the radio.

Emmy Rossum- Slow me Down

wonder

I know I left but I see why I did now. I ran away from reality. I escaped into a world were life was peaceful. Yet, I had to leave that peace and come back to the turmoil here; but now I have a new perspective. so... Can you make me a promise?

If I'm different now, can you take it without anger? If I correct my faults, can you bear with me?

contemplate that.

...

tANON

pictures are below :D :

maranatha

MAIN entrance

the building

the sun between the trees

trees!!!

trees (again)

sun's up view

pine trees

the plant

close up

the first thing you see

the monkey (hope you can see it)

two snails (lol)

the snail

the butterfly (1)

the butterfly (2)

first place of reflection

2nd place of reflection

outside

inside

I wonder if you noticed that the "book" thing said 'Grace to you' on the red cover. I picked it up because of that and found my favourite flowers inside and the verse. Strange huh?

I should've

This is something I should have done on the 8th of November. Its late but at least now, I'm doing it.

In memory of Melanie

Thank you for guiding me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for helping me through it all
Thank you for catching me when I fall
Thank you for always being there
For always showing that you cared.

There's so much I need to thank you for, my dearest friend. I wish you didn't have to go. I've cried so many tears since you've left me. I've blamed God. I've never truly moved on. I know you'd want me to. And with your help I will.

I miss you.

hrm.

I'll be putting up pictures and a proper post tomorrow about my retreat. :) nice being back but I miss the tranquility there.

bye all and see you sunday!

confusion

Right. So as all of you know, I'll be going on a retreat right? Well then, I'm feeling a bit scared now since I'll be by myself. Great! I'm chickening out. :( I feel mad at myself right now. I'm so idiotic. Now, I'm happy that I'm getting out of this place for three days. well now. erm. I have nothing to say.

Big day tomorrow. heh. Retreat. Mom and Dad went to check out the place today and they both say its REALLY secluded and quiet. Hopefully I'll last.

Persistent boredom has made me bring you this:

waaaaaa

very cute. even my mom smiled.

:/

Well now:



and only 3 days to my:


Light in darkness,
Hope in desolation.
Joy in despair.
Life amidst death.

confusion

two pieces of news really cut me today.
One about one of my favourite priests.
the other about one of my best friend.

Sometimes I wonder how life would be. When people change. When you change. I guess its inevitable. But it doesn't change the fact that it is one of the hardest things in life. I hate change usually. Yet, it still comes and knocks me down. I absolutely despise it. Life is so unfair and I hate it. I really hate it.

People are hurt and we can't do anything. Confusion clouds our paths and its so hard to choose. I pity those who hurt. I pity the confused. I HATE IT SO BADLY I COULD CRY. :( I don't know what I can do but pray. I'm not good at helping. I hate seeing people upset. Don't we all? I wish that the pain they have to go through isn't there. But.. I can't do anything can I? All I can do is watch.

And then there's hypocrisy. I'm the biggest hypocrite ever born. but then, its hard not to be one. why is the right thing always the hardest thing to do? Can you forgive me if I do what's right? Will you not mock me? If my beliefs are such a contrast to yours, can you accept me? I wonder that sometimes. Why do we hurt others when we don't want to be hurt ourselves?

How amazingly shocking life can be. So much to wonder at. So much to learn about. Do you ever stop and think about the intricate weaving of a spiderweb? Or perhaps the simple nature of a seed to grow? We rush through life without appreciating the little things, the little wonders until they're all gone.

Our lives can change in a second. Believe me, its true.

omg

DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE!!

0___0" DIEEEEEE

btw, tis 6.25am!

boom

Holidays are here and now. Great isn't it? I'm glad but I'll soon be so bored out of my mind. But I have something to look forward to. My retreat. that's the ONLY thing I'll look forward to. haha. and tomorrow is FRISBEE day. And we are not ready so be erm, ready (oh gosh how punny) to find the worst possible team since only Wae, Lina/ShaSha and I are the only ones who practiced. We're doomed. yay! -___-

Today Wae and I practiced Frisbee with Topher while my brother just watched. Then we went to eat in Anjung Merah with my mom and brother. now I'm hungry again. okay back to topic. We played one round of Scrabble and were starting the second when Wae's dad came.

we're going to die tomorrow.

die
die
die
die
die

I'm so glad I'm not going to school on Monday and the whole of next week so I won't have to DIE (oh PUNs!) of embarrassment. tanon. tanon. tanon. tanon.

argghhh... DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!

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If you're bored, you can watch that. its just a clip of Leona Lewis singing. She's really good though.

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If you're in the mood for mushy sappy exchanges click this -> Exchanges and read. :) Makes me go 'awww', seriously.

FRISBEE tomorrow. going to die. great.

bla bla. go check out Leona Lewis on YouTube, you won't regret it. :D

FRISBEE!!

SMK USJ 13-ians hide your faces in embaressment. :( If you really can't tell what it's suppose to be, its "COLOURS OF THE WIND".

anyway, SORRY TO ONG SVAN LI!!!!! I'm so sorry that I didn't go to school. :(

on the lighter note, I'm going for a retreat next week so I'll be gone from the 9th till the 11th of November. I'm also going to be the youngest there. heh. Hopefully, I won't get homesick since I'm a very attached person.