:(

Well then. Threats work wonders for a person's self esteem. I wonder whether you realise that. I'm only here because of you. Can you understand that sometimes I get tired of you nagging me? You went through lots of things with your mother, why can't I? I know you were the perfect child but its so hard for me. Why can't you see that?

11.51pm

uni

IMU today. International Medical University. The bus we took was okay compared to the really nice one we took to Sunway University College. Wae and I sat in front of Esther and Gan. It was an "okay" looking university in Bukit Jalil but the dumb escalators weren't working. So we had to walk all the way up. The speaker was 'Ong Kok __'. Sorry, I forgot his name. Most probably Wae's estranged cousin, ha ha.

Then we got to eat and drink D.I.Y. Milo. Naturally, mine was the most tasteless. Somehow someone's Milo spilled through the rubbish bin. -___-" hehe. The best part was the Medical Museum. We got to see real bones and babies in jars. Yes, babies.. it was sick. and then there was the men's genitals incident with Wae. Apart from that, we saw real livers, spleens, hearts, breasts, testicals, lungs and etc. I think they were in formalin to avoid too much discolouration. Wae kept nagging me about why I was laughing at the parts. Well, they looked pretty funny to me.

Here's a "funny" story. Ryan asked me why I was so quiet today when the speaker asked if we had any questions and You Fei who over heard, said "Grace, quiet ah? Aiyo, the sky is going to fall lah! See, see, see there's a BIG crack." -.- But honestly I wasn't quiet. I mean when 'whatshisname' asked stuff Wae and I answered. So, well the sky isn't going to fall.

And here's a link to John Hopkins University. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you clearly don't know anything about medical schools seeing as JH is the TOP medical school in the world. I found out a few months ago (March I think) and told my mom and brother. My mom was supportive as usual but Aaron laughed out loud. HMPH. Harvard Medical School would also be one of my top choices. haha. :D Gosh, believe it or not, only 9% out of the people that apply get into Harvard Med. Higher than JH actually. and to get in, your brain has to be HUGE because they only accept students who meet a really, really high requirement for SATs. Oh yeah, Harvard is also the top medical school.

So nothing much then. I'm tired and I've got to wash clothes now. so thanks for reading and tata.

unrequited love

emoing? this is the song to listen to.. especially if you're being emo about love. heh. Oh by the way, it is an original composition. it is very well done and worth a watch.

tanon

Currently this is my favourite song. Makes me get goosebumps all over. heh. Today Mr. Douglas came to school so we played Frisbee. It was so tiring that Wae, Helmi aka ShaSha couldn't play after that. So we stayed back until 2.45 in school and played:-
1. Mind Challenge
2. UpWords
3. Scrabble.

I was laughing like crazy the whole time, I have no idea why. I even made Lena (aka Sha Sha) give up his/her/shim/its will to live. lol. Then we walked to Josiki's house. The dumb part was that we were all paired up. -.-" Wae and Topher, Jess and KH ,ShaSha and me. Sha Sha and I however went to the "Singles Only" area with Sister Lina (aka the kitchen) leaving the 2 couples alone. I learnt a lot about the first time KH came over to Jessics's house.

Nothing much now except that tomorrow is IMU day. woopee. and that my MSN isn't working since my brother downloaded a virus via a file his friend sent him. twa twa twa. TANON.

hehehehehe.

and.
erm.
well.
lalalallalala.
okay, can you tell I'm bored?

KEEP MOVING FORWARD~ Walt Disney

hi

This is from Rae aka Suan Li aka EAR. Go to this link

the thingy


and then, do as it tells you. :D

luvvy

Luvena (the one on the left)

heheheheh

JUNNO!

lol. Mel never stops about how they look alike and YES!! , they do.

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Luvena Tan Suet Lyn and I hope you'll have a smashing and awesome and AMAZING birthday! :D
God bless you!!
...

ooo

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Picky

You have no problem attracting guys - and even dating a little It's just around second or third date time where you start to see faults If a guy isn't near perfect, you're not into him. It's good to have standards - but yours rule almost everyone out.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

how true. lol. :D from Mel's blog. heh

...

stand by me

if I ever get married, I want this song to be played. heh. Its really sweet. oh and if you're really free, copy this URL -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ce_DxJFdgM4 and listen to the song. Its really sweet. :)

rosary

I've received a rose-scented rosewood rosary from Rome thanks to my uncle and aunt. They bought one of me and my brother, whereas my mom got something a bit different.

Funny, I wanted one last year and now I've finally got it. My mom's driver's seat window cracked into pieces today. So the maroon Kancil is windowless.

Void

by Michael Anderson

Void, canceled, simply annulled.
Endlessly aching, unconsoled.
Life without you, cause without reason.
Touch without sense, time without season.
I face life now facing a cancerous sore,
A sordid parasite that eats at my core.
All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within,
Leaving me lifeless, or at least not livin'.

A shallow face, anguished and marred.
An empty space, scaled and scarred.
Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade.
Secretly hiding 'hind a fictitious facade.
Still, lost within this heart of glass,
This fragile and yet unfeeling mass.
Lies the remains of a love that glowed,
The gift to you I once bestowed.

But honor and pride now bereaved-
By your love for me so misconceived,
Ripped from my inner depths, impeding-
Mind and body and spirit, bleeding;
Now's crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand,
A cold stare I just can't understand.
I feel that somehow, somehow I'm dying,
At least my soul and all that's underlying.

A simple void, is that what I've become?
The hollowed sphere on a pendulum.
Swinging back and forth, emotion to emotion,
Never once stopping, nor slowing the motion.
No reason, no answer, no justification.
The creation of a sterile imagination.
Just passing through time as time passes me.
Merely a nothing- nothing, merely, left to be.
Sightless and soundless, unseen and unheard.
Mindless and boundless, obscure and absurd.
All empathy lying ungraced, unemployed,
I live my life dying, unembraced, a void.

...

:p

Its just a dumb calculator but.. heh. -___-" how weird. hopefully untrue.

what the?!?!

Love Calculator results

These are the results of the calculations by Dr. Love:

Tee Ka Hong		Jessica Lee Jenn
	1 %

Dr. Love thinks a relationship might work out between Tee Ka Hong and Jessica Lee Jenn, but the chance is very small. A successful relationship is possible, but you both have to work on it. Do not sit back and think that it will all work out fine, because it might not be working out the way you wanted it to. Spend as much time with each other as possible. Again, the chance of this relationship working out is very small, so even when you do work hard on it, it still might not work out.

Love Calculator results

These are the results of the calculations by Dr. Love:

Christopher Yap Boon Seong		Rachel Ong Suan Li
	82 %

Dr. Love thinks that a relationship between Christopher Yap Boon Seong and Rachel Ong Suan Li has a very good chance of being successful, but this doesn't mean that you don't have to work on the relationship. Remember that every relationship needs spending time together, talking with each other etc.

:::

over but not.
glad i'm moving next year.
'distance makes the heart fonder', right?
for me.. the further I am, the less I love.

D:

Its like a tugging.

Its a sort of pull towards a direction.

Its confusing and wonderful at the same time.

You feel that you want to run that way

But you want to hold back

Sometimes the feeling is gone

and suddenly, its back.


You want to tell someone

But you're afraid they'll reject you.

All you can do is keep it to yourself

Hoping your call is the right one.

Perhaps it is..

~random musings by me

.....

Do you have a feeling that sometimes your friends are moving apart from you.. like you don't know them anymore. I'm afraid its happening. I don't want it to. Maybe its me. Maybe its her/them. I don't know right now. :(

LOL!!

frisbee

Here's a link to the OFFICIAL Ultimate Frisbee website:

UF

love

Frisbee is SO much fun. I really enjoyed myself. Although, I got teamed up with a girl from a different school (Pei Wen) it was a blast. :D I wish Mel got to play too..

Maybe we could all play during the evenings. You could come to the field in front of my house since its huge. haha. and partly because my mom helps my dad in the clinic during evenings and I won't have transport then. lol. Only thing was that my eyes were swollen in the morning. Luckily, it cleared up after mass. Hehe.

I wish my mom would be more supportive that I FINALLY found a sport that I like. but no.. she's acting all nonchalant about it. Its so frustrating. Oh well, I'll try to not let that get me down.

SPIRIT OF THE GAME!!

wheee

Which Harry Potter Character Are You?

My Result: Hermione Granger

Raise your hand if you can picture yourself at the head of the class — any class. Though sometimes you might crack under pressure, that doesn't mean you're not brave and strong; you just care about doing things right. After all, you don't want to mess up your toads' eye and frogs' blood spell, do you?


Some people might say you could stand to work a bit less, but you know a little sweat will get you right to the top. And, hey, if you have a spare second can you help us with our homework? Thanks!

Take this test >

lol.. answer to boredom.

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bored

I am so bored. Believe me, boredom is .. well, BORING. I'm so bored. Tomorrow is Frisbee day. woopee. Did you hear the sarcasm in that?

Miserable ol' me

horror

OH THE HORROR.

DUMBLEDORE IS GAY!!! :S isn't that freaky?!?!?!?!
its a CHILDREN'S book!!!

emo emo emo

Here's a sad emo song about a father who doesn't want his daughter to grow up to soon. Hate Hannah Montana but Billy Ray Cyrus's "Ready, Set, Don't go" is really sad. It reminds me of Bob Carlisle's 'Butterfly Kisses' which makes me cry all the time!!

wooot

suan li/wae/tortoise/wallaby/my twin/bff

is

not moving

yay!! i am so happy!!! :D:D:D

quizzes again

The Handwriting Analysis Test

My Result: Orderly

People who are orderly have a writing style that reflects that they like things to be neat and methodical, and that they generally follow the rules necessary to keep things organized. Their writing includes predominantly standard formatting because they like to keep things in order, and the standard writing techniques are the socially accepted and thus the clearest way to communicate on paper. Of all of the personality characteristics that are projected in their writing, orderliness is the one that predominates.

Take this test >

What Kind of Cool Are You?

My Result: Calm, Cool, and Collected

Do your friends like to lean on your shoulder? Ask you for advice in life and love? Put you on speed-dial for emergencies? We bet they do. You're as balanced as they come. When it comes to making decisions, you're not afraid to take the time to weigh your options carefully in order to make the right choice. And it takes more than a few obstacles to rattle your cool head.


The good news is that you've also got lots of heart, and you make sure that people know that you always have their backs. There's almost nothing more important to you than the people in your life, so being a support to them is the coolest thing around. Just like you.

Take this test >

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Movie Challenge

My Result: Master Wizard

When it comes to Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, you're a star! From Harry's Firebolt to the Hungarian Horntail, you're no mere Muggle.


Whether you've seen all the films more times than you can count or you've just got a great memory, you know your way around this enchanting world of witchcraft and wizardry. And one thing's for sure — your knowledge of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire is nothing short of magical!

Take this test >

Who's the Man of Your Dreams?

My Result: A Secret Agent

Mystery and intrigue — it's not just for action-adventure movies. It's what you are looking for in life and love. From spontaneous weekend getaways to notes stuck in your jean pockets, you love being surprised and appreciate the extra thought and effort that goes into making it happen.


That's why a secret agent could steal your heart — he's got what it takes to change the world, but he's not about to go around shouting about it. But don't worry, your secret's safe with us. Shhhh.

Take this test >

booo

Biology looks fun,
Chemistry is okay,
Physics is monotonous,
and that's all I have to say.

...

:D :D

I am having insane dreams lately. Really scary and realistic ones. Like two nights ago I dreamt that I didn't finish my BM Paper 2 and my mom was so mad at me. Then before that, I dreamt that PMR wasn't over. Last night I dreamt that I was moving away.

Obviously I'm panicking about a few things:
1. PMR results.
2. The fact that Wae might be moving to JB.
3. My own moving to a new parish.

I am the QUEEN OF PARANOIA. (so paranoid, I don't have a husband xD) I will be going to the bookshop later. That's one of the highlights of my week. I am so weird as Helmi reminded me yesterday.

Oh and guess what? A plate of fried rice in Rome is RM22 according to my uncle who's on holiday there. I mean, WHY??? Just fried rice too! This is what happens when our currency is really nothing compared to other countries. -___-

Booyah. :) 271 till WYD. I am super excited for more reasons than one.

...

hrm

I put up a link to my old blogs. Its #1 and#2. I'm feeling better now. I downloaded IE version 7 already so my blog looks reasonably normal looking. Oh yeah, I bought a new COF book. Its thin like the old red book but its YELLOW. Finally, a YELLOW book, huh?

I'll be going for the Frisbee thing in MPSJ this Sunday. I wonder what we'll be doing. I mean, how hard can it be to throw a Frisbee right? Which reminds me I have to call Pn. Natlie to ask whether I need a form since I don't have one, as I am taking Melanie's place.

Wae- do you want to help me out for the Treasure Hunt thing or do you want to join the game itself? Get back to me about it okay?

Life is a little marble which goes bouncy-bounce-bounce.
Woopdeedoo.

So small

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

-So Small, Carrie Underwood from the album 'Carnival Ride'

...

Hey

Hi everyone. This new blog skin might not work too well in FireFox but it works fine in Internet Explorer. So, please use your discretion.

Anyone know how to cure misery? If you do, please inform me.

ironic

ironically true. hmm...

ugly betty

If you're an UGLY BETTY fan, watch this video. Its Mika's "Big Girls You are Beautiful" that's been changed to make "Hey Betty, You are Beautiful".

fool

i am such a fool.

why?

melly

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL!!
THANKS FOR BEING AN AWESOME FRIEND TO ME!!! :D

and.. GOD BLESS!!

:)

We are like a river.
We start out small and slowly though erosion, we grow bigger.
We gain confidence.
We start to mature.
But where do all rivers head to?

The sea.

Where are we heading?

Eduardo

eduardo verastegui
actor/singer
worked with J.Lo and ALL other superstars.

so, what's so special about him??

He changed his life 4 years ago when he realised the role he was playing in the industry was promoting impurities of mind, body and soul.

and he's life is completely different.

He hasn't kissed a woman in four years because he promised that the next woman he will kiss is his wife.
He was JOBLESS for 4 years and lived with the Friars of the Renewal.
He's now a producer and his new movie BELLA won the Toronto Film Festival.
and he's changed lives.

And this is why I believe that faith is alive now.

dream

Haha. I had this MENTAL dream that PMR wasn't over. -.- I know most of you are probably thinking "Grace is mental." But I am too you know. Anyway, I hope I can persuade my mom to buy me some Chem and Phys books. I'd like to start learning now so when I (hopefully) get into Pure Science, I'd know what the teachers are talking about. I've really learnt my lesson about not studying properly for the past 3 years.

Auditions are in December for the YOUNG K.L. SINGERS and my mom agreed to take me! ;D

so small

Here's the URL for Carrie Underwood's NEW SINGLE from her new album, So Small. Its a really meaningful song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kUtFEKhtB30

BYU vocal point

BYU vocal point presents:



SPIDERMAN



THRILLER

boo

today was fun with a surprise phone call from Luvena! :) hehe.. cried over A WALK TO REMEMBER with Mel and Suan Li since Jess went home WAY too early. ( :( ) heh.

spill.com

Good movie reviews??

go to www.spill.com

:)

totd

Dare to be a dreamer!
Being cynical means not believing in the promise of a better future. Cynics look around and see all the terrible things happening in the world and can only imagine that things are going to get worse. Christians, on the other hand, can be optimistic about the future. We wait in hope for the wonderful world that is coming because we have already begun to experience it.

Only hope

WARNING: TO THE COF MEMBERS COMING TO MY HOUSE ON THURSDAY!!

My mom said she's gonna lecture us on "girl" stuff. -.-" so here's a head's up... just in case.

dream of me

makes me so.. emo...

dual

Sometimes I notice that all of us have double natures. Sometimes we act a certain way to be accepted by certain people. Here's an example:

You're a really strong supporter of a certain group or a certain belief. Then one day you meet this group of "cool" people and give that belief up in front of them in order to fit in.

Why?

I don't really get it with some people, how they can act like different in front of others and different in front of me. Or even myself; I tend to portray myself like this "good" student but inside, I'm not. Its all fake and being fake is well, for the lack of words, unreal. Why do we become a Dr. Jekyll/ Mr. Hyde and live with double identities?

Is it fear? Perhaps it is. Perhaps its the fear of rejection. Yet, in order to be who we TRULY are, we will be rejected by people. However, if you stick to who you are and stand by your beliefs, people will learn to respect you. They may not like you but they'll respect you.

Just a thought.

Gosh

Friendship or a crush?

Its impossible to be just friends with someone you have a crush on because you've put a step forward across the boundary between friends and lovers. Perhaps, you think you're in love (which is a silly chemical reaction in your brain) but when you come to the point where the other shows signs of liking you, the fuzzyness is gone.

Wait.
I didn't put that right.
Perhaps, you like this one person. and he "shows" signs that he likes you too. But its been going on for a long time and slowly, you begin to appreciate him in a different way. You learn to respect and admire. Admiration is completely different from having a crush. And suddenly, you realise you've just admired him all along.

Funny how life is that way. Soon you see, you can get along with him without feeling any apprehension; any fear. You can just relax.

On the lighter note, I'm going to SYDNEY!!! and since my mom is coming with me (Aaron aka my brother aka my "hero" pulled out), I'll be there for 2 WEEKS! yay!!

I love all of you.

get over it

Midsummer Night's Dream with a twist. :D

spiderpig

hm. watching SPIDERMAN 3 online now. so bored.

Boredom

Well!! I'm going for mass later and then to CARREFOUR!! -.-" haha. and gosh, this is so.. BORING.

over

I am PROUD to be the FIRST person from SMK USJ 13 to announce that PMR is over. hahaha. -.-"