luvena

Dearest Luvena,
look up the song I told you.

Void by MATT MAHER
"Riding down the streets of envy,
looking for some recognition.
That would make me really happy:
if they desired my position.

Prom-time princess, beauty queen;
see all the admiring faces.
Chasing after blind ambition,
they don't see the King of Heaven's graces.

'Cause what I want is you;
what I need is truth.
Will someone tell me that for a change?
Nothing ever holds in a world lukewarm,
so come and fill the empty space inside of me.

Wish upon a falling star
and dream of your perfection.
It fades away held up against your failures
and dying self-opinion.

Beauty's on the late night TV,
showing off the next big thing.
Turn it off ... I'm lost.
I forgot who I was.
Jesus, won't you tell me I'm worth something?"

stretched much?

tomorrow is going to ONE hectic day.

from 7am to 5pm I have Spiritual Preparatio for WYD in Sydney PLUS the dikir barat performance in front of the whole Malaysian Contingent. wow. i hope I don't mess up. all this in KL!

then at 7pm I have attend the talk given by Uncle Tan aka Mr Johnny Tan at Wern Hong's place. until 10pm!

God help me.

Young Enterprise?

oh how tiresome people can be. one wants to have a post but when he loses out he gets angry. he goes on a tirade on how HIS best friend is NOT getting anything.

sometimes i can't wait for this to be over. wait... i always want it to be over. what a day of release that would be for me.

shades of pink

i shouldn't care. i SHOULDN'T. but i do. and its so embarassing!!!!!! and he might know. OH GOD. i'm sooooo ... argh!

tears

i never knew i'd cry over something like this. but its a part of who i am and i have a right to cry. clearly debating is not my strong point. but i guess it shall only drive me to study my faith harder. and i'll prove myself better.

practices during weekdays must be attended so Mark will have to pick me up after work. I just hope I don't end up saying something I shouldn't be. Maybe its safer to go with Anil. hmm.

WYD coming in 3 weeks. take or leave. can't wait. :D :D

r n r

random random random.
gosh i don't know what to write. haha. really. i don't.
maybe i'll just write random words.

voice. head. sing. find. tiny. spatula. corrosive. clap. bounce

okay. i think i'll stop. :D

again. ;D

Michy and Sarah. (ketua kumpulan 5. i think again.) my old group members. :D

natasha, madihah, sarah and suraya.

darren and han xin.

left to right: christine, lynette, darren, justin, han xin, whatshisname (lol) and binky.

the only downside was Suan wasn't here. she'd be an exco member for sure. miss you!

for suan

Prefect installation TOdAiii! (lol) It was okay. EXCEPT that the USELESS probates (fine, new prefects) didn't stay to help arrange the chairs back into the hall. The librarians and KOPERASI prefects helped out. for suan-suan's benefit, here are some shots taken by Azman and Shahrizal.

Binky aka EL SA doing.. something.

left to right: Justin, Penguin, Darren and Han Xin

Rizal and Azman. thanks.

old exco.

the NEW exco. left to right: Esther*HP*, Natasha *PKP1*, me *PKP2* and Michy *Secretary*

*ESTHER!. -.-*

and to close off, the orang gila. Binky is Ketua Kumpulan 3. i think. or was it 2? =.=

OMG OMG OMG OMG

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

GOD ROCKS SOCKS!!

FINALLY after YEARS of wondering, I have found my godmother.

okay.. she wasn't missing but since I moved away from Klang, I have had 0 contact with Auntie Mary. or Philip. NOW she's going to WYD too!!!!!! SUPER HAPPY. I can't wait to meet up with her during the next SPIRITUAL PREPARATION on the 28th of June!

:D :D i wonder if Philip's going too.

marie digby

pwetty song

Little J

This post is dedicated to my funny friend Little J (Jessica) who will turn SIXTEEN tomorrow.

So whenever you DO read this Jess, remember you're a great girl who is completely intelligent and awesomely awesome. Keep being HAPPY and AH-MAZING because you deserve every happiness. ;D ;D

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN! the COUGH girls ♥♥♥♥ you!!!

phoenix

When you’re old enough to recognize that you’re life is going out of control you’re clearly trying to get control. Sometimes that fight is a miserable and draggy one. Sometimes you’re pumped up, ready to kick some butt. Then there are times that temptations appear in your way and you falter, only to curse later on.

I’m cursing my way right now (not literally of course) for my past discretions that have not done me any good. Instead they have destroyed the every chance I have of being who I want to be. Well, that too is not literal but merely figuratively. Truly I wonder how I could have gone down that wrong, wrong road into the abyss I now stand in.

It was the temptation of the two black boxes (figuratively again) in my life. The one I am currently clicking the keyboard on and the one which is playing Desperate Housewives for my brother to watch. My mother is helping me dispose of one of them soon. My wonderful marks have finally convinced her that I need supervision. Unlike most teenagers, I think I do. Truly and honestly. I wish I could slap myself but it only stings for the moment. The crappy-ness I feel for my stupidity is indeed the worst mental slap of all.

I may come across as being utterly pessimistic. But my dear, I being extremely positive right now. I believe that after every fall comes the time of renewal. Even beautiful phoenixes fall into ashes before being reborn once again. It knows it will have to go through the many flames before it starts anew in order to reach the glory of a beautiful golden plumage. Of course, I am no phoenix but I dream that perhaps, one day I could be.

So, do not pity me but support me. I think with just the right amount of luck, I’ll survive this flames in order to come out renewed.

sayonara

some secrets are meant to be kept within the family but you accidentally let loose on occasion. thankfully, you learn your lesson and find yourself sealing your lips once more. after all, who likes to look like they're weak.

i haven't failed so far. but i'm feeling very nervous about the last 3 papers i haven't received:
biology
physics
additional maths.

of checkered skirts and hairbands

school schmool. at least the new COUGH book will keep me company when i get it. and J will be there. and M2. then again, the results will be out. crud.

but heck, i've got to study study study. do i not want to be in NUS? i do. so off to hit the books soon enough. study study study. amongst other things.

STUDY!

:((((

i hate school.
i doubt i'll be HAPPY to return.

school sucks.

permanently.

:/ :/ I'm going to miss staying home. oh well.

M square

mel's DEVIANT ART account


Oh wow, Mel Mel. I am super proud of you. :D

FIGHT-O by ~my-last-song on deviantART

baca

I guess I am very bookish. I love books. Books are the best thing ever. I wish I could READ all the story books I want. But I can't.

Studies involve books too. SHOCKING isn't it? I do love my studies. I know its COMPLETELY wrong to but studies are fun. If you have a teacher who loves to teach (unlike Pn Salamiah) and you do your homework (unlike me) it is completely pure fun. Sure it takes tonnes of work and "semangat". Thats the ONLY bad side but come on, studying is FUN!

right? ;D

rewind

wasted.

i've spent most of my holidays doing absolutely nothing. i could have studied. i could have done everything i wanted to do. yet. here i am again. feeling wasted.

:D

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

COUGH reunion