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That baby picture is from http://www.flickr.com/photos/ania_p/1433846907/. Looks like Tommy from Rugrats right? :D :D Cute and happy.

I'm feeling better today and feel a little more hopeful about things. Don't you? I did up Fiona's page for her. Check it out (she's linked) if you'd like. :D

hrm

I have not touched the computer in the past 4 days and so this is actually a record/ an achievement. My grades in total (for the eleven subjects I take in school, not counting Bible Knowledge taken out of school) is: 9A1s, 2B4s and 1C5.

That isn’t so bad now is it? I think it’s quite good. Except for the C in Bio. Gosh I hate that one. I am determined to score straight A1s in Mid Terms. Don’t we all? That’s why I have refrained from using the computer/TV from Monday (I started on Tuesday this week) to Friday so I will have time to study and balance everything else. Its worked out well I guess.

Our new Maths teacher is a Form 6 student.. EX form 6 student. He’s okay. I guess. Smart but slightly childish. He’s a boy (duh) so the maturity level at 20 is still rather low. The probates were introduced to the school this week and I’m having fun with them. They are the funniest people. I guess we have a ‘quite OK group’ this time round. So, generally this week has been alright.

I guess.

I’m feeling rather gloomy now. Gloomy for a lot of reasons. Ah well, life’s what you make it right?

scoreboard

Additional Maths: 59%
English: 90%
Bahasa Malaysia: 80%
Sejarah: 75%
Accounts: 87%
Physics: 85%
Chemistry: 62%
Biology: 58%

I could just shoot myself. Am I proud? Of course not. I feel like mud. or worse. oh well, suck it up and move on right?

kau saudara ku, kau sahabat ku

Something that I learnt at camp:

a friend is someone you can truly rely on. You tell your problems to them and they share theirs with you. You call them to talk about anything out of the blue and you know, they are there to listen. You don't mind when they call you to complain about the way their bad hair day. Its a sort of trust you have. Its telling them your secrets and knowing they would never tell anyone else. Its knowing that they know boundaries and you do too. its them being there for you and you for them.

now, do you have any friends? real ones? just a thought.

singing rollybollyball a penny a pitch

Hrm.
Dear Luvena,
you look SO old.
not in a bad way.
like a mature way.
but just, i don't know. Its just that you look so. gosh. not in a bad way again. Its just that I am not used to having such a fabulous looking friend who looks wise beyond her years and has her life all sorted out. Get that?

I'm sorry. I'm in a bitter mood. Why? because I realise now that I cannot do what I wanted to do tomorrow. It is just way out of my league right now. I'm really tight on my time and joining that, no matter how fun it is... its just a big no-no for me. I haven't even told my parents. I don't want to hear them tell me how my studies matter more. Or even support me to go.

I don't know what I want. :s

ra ra ra

oh dear. I signed up for it. But but but but.. I doubt I'd be able to make it. I hate not being able to do the things I want. So yes, I'm not going to go into detail about whatever it is. I would die of humiliation. THAT is the honest truth.

Dreams, dreams, dreams. So hard to achieve no? I want this and that and everything in between. I have to put my life into perspective. I can't keep going and going until I find that everything that I did was a waste of time. When can I really come to terms that I mess up a lot because I don't bother to pick myself up after that?

priorities, priorities. Does anyone know where I put mine?

***

its me again. who else right? I own this blog. anyway, I just can't believe that I managed to get inspired by this random guy from Brazil. No, I don't know him personally. Probably never will. He was so honest and he gave me that boost that I truly truly needed. God is so good. A RANDOM Brazilian!! Can you believe that? I ... wow, I really am glad I clicked on that link. I really am.

I FEEL SO much better.

off we go, into the blue wild yonder

Again I have changed the layout style. If you had dropped by in the past hour, this would be surprising result of what I have been playing with earlier. If you had stopped to look every few minutes, you would have seen so many other versions of my blog.

I am feeling mucho better. (does that make sense since 'better' is a comparitive and 'mucho' means much which is also comparitive?) Thank goodness that momentary spasm of the brain has passed. I feel better. I really do. Such a relief it is to be a little (a lot) better than I was an hour ago.

SO. well. I have nothing much to talk about.

Wait, I'll talk about American Idol.

Tonight's show was Country Music and sadly, Adam Lambert murdered Ring of Fire. He killed the song, as in brutally murdered it. Couldn't he have done something by well, frankly there is no country song that would have suited Adam. Anoop Desai has redeemed himself from his attempt at being M.Jackson last week. Danny did well, as always. :D :D

STILL. I wish Adam didn't murder that song. IF he does end up being the one with the lowest votes I do hope the judges use that save of theirs. He can win but gosh, KILLING that song was such a big mistake. :/

Megan Corkrey otherwise known now as Megan Joy was sick. but still, I never really liked her. :/ Sorry to those who do but not for me. Matt Giraud surprised me. I liked his rendition of So Small, which is one of my favourite Carrie Underwood songs. :) Lil' Rounds, her song didn't step up to the version Carrie Underwood. Sad to say.

Michael Sarver, I had no idea what he was saying. But he managed to say a WHOLE lot of words in one breath. Alison did great. as always. Kris Allen was good. But he won't get far in this competition. But clearly, country is the genre for him. Scott did a nice performance. I like it better than the one he did last week. Paula Abdul told him to perform without the piano sometimes but really, Scott dancing? how wrong would that be? @_@

Alexis Grace may look like Dolly Parton but her voice needed to be a little huskier for that country tone. 'Jolene' is such a nice song but without Dolly's tone, it just does not work. I love Alexis though, Dirty Diana last week was realllllyyyy good.

In my humble opinion, bottom two this week is
Adam Lambert (WHY??!?!?!)
Michael Sarver. (:/ love him but not THAT great tonight)
adding to that...
and maybe Megan OR Lil' Rounds for bottom 3.

yay! a nice post. :D :D

NO-ti-va-tion

MOTIVATION.
I really a need a shot of that. Its like a rollercoaster ride. ONE DAY, you're up in the sky. the next day, you're thinking 'i can't do this'. anyone know the secrets to stay motivated. permanently?

I hate having absolutely 0 motivation to do anything. Isn't that the worst part of reaching goals? see, i am rather annoyed now until I have no mood to write anything proper.
(insert scream here)

my blog is going to be under renovation. temporarily.

Orsino: Make no compare Between that love a woman can bear me And that I owe Olivia.
Cesario: Ay, but I know...
Orsino: What dost thou know?
Cesario: Too well what love women to men may owe. In faith, they are as true of heart as we. My father had a daughter lov'd a man As it might be perhaps, were I a woman, I should your lordship.

true true.
Don't understand that? :/ an explanation:
Brother and sister Viola and Sebastian, who are not only very close but look a great deal alike, are in a shipwreck, and both think the other dead. When she lands in a foreign country, Viola dresses as her brother and adopts the name Cesario, becoming a trusted friend and confidante to the Count Orsino. Orsino is madly in love with the lady Olivia, who is in mourning due to her brother's recent death, which she uses as an excuse to avoid seeing the count, whom she does not love. He sends Cesario to do his wooing, and Olivia falls in love with the disguised maiden. Things get more complicated in this bittersweet Shakespeare comedy when a moronic nobleman, Sir Andrew Aguecheek, and a self-important servant, Malvolio, get caught up in the schemes of Olivia's cousin, the obese, alcoholic Sir Toby, who leads each to believe Olivia loves him. Olivia, disguised as Cesario is in love with Count Orsino and has a hard time containing her feelings as she tries to help her master to woo Olivia. As well, Sebastian surfaces in the area, and of course there is Feste, the wise fool, around to keep everything in perspective and to marvel, like we the audience, at the amazing things happening all around.

IMDB rocks. :D
and so does Shakespeare

much ado about nothing? i hope not

I wish I could get it. I hope I do get it. :) I really really do. What, dear reader? I won't tell you. I will not speak of good news until it happens.

+++++

:D :D exams are over! finally. holidays bring nothing much except for studying of course but it is much better to rest a little more. Amen to that! :)

isn't Shakespeare divine? Not him specifically! His works! HILARIOUS AND GENIUS! :D :D

oscar night

HUGH JACKMAN! :D

just stop

did anyone read the article on cussing in the newspaper (the Star) yesterday? After reading it I guess we should all REALLY learn to use better and cleaner language. ANYWAY, here's the excerpt of this guy's website:

I am 14 years old. I'm just a regular kid. I like to play soccer, play video games, hang out with my friends, etc. I started the No Cussing Club at my junior high school in South Pasadena, California in 2007. A lot of kids at my school, and some of my friends, would cuss and use dirty language all the time. They did it so much, they didn't even realize they were doing it. It bothered me so much that one day I challenged them to stop! They were shocked. They didn't know that it was bothering me. They didn't even realize how much they were doing it until I said something. I was actually surprised at how they reacted; they accepted my No Cussing Challenge. But some of the kids said they didn't know how to stop. That's when I started the No Cussing Club.

I think that is pretty impressive. Standing up to your peers is not easy. I salute this guy for having the guts to do that. He has an amazing point. Cussing in any form be it sign language or through words, it is just plain rude. So I am taking the No Cussing Challenge. Anyone want to join me in not saying rude words or showing any kind of bad hand signal? Its a challenge that is worth taking.

For more info: http://www.nocussing.com

snap

Dear people,
do you know how long it took to generate this post? You see, my attention span has been reduced to something so limited. In fact, I have absolutely nothing to talk about.

I hate having such a limited brain capacity. Wait, I don't. I just don't have the will/concentration to go through with my plans. Why can't I be perfectly, perfect? I know, perfection is something only associated with God. Believe me, no one is perfect. Yet, I would like to be more organised. That is my main downfall. I have been doing my best . . .

okay, I haven't.

I wish I had been. Its not easy. I wish I didn't waste my time so much. I should put time limits and write down things I should be doing. Instead, I spend an hour thinking of what to write on my blog. Isn't that silly? When will I find balance!?!

I shall get to studying now. Just after I finish copying a song online. and checking some other things.

damn it!!

IF you have not gotten your SPM exam timetable like me, here's a link to our fabulous future. http://www.moe.gov.my/lpm/files/spm/JadualWaktuSPM2009Pin1-5Feb2009.pdf

little by little

I have decided to give my blog a complete D.B.M. (done by me) look. All that you see... its 100% me. I designed the colours and the extras at the side. Alright, the whole programming is not by me (since when did I learn to create software?) but the concept is. So yes, this is all me. I got tired of blogskins that just don't fit. So I decided to come up with something I could live with. I do hope you like it. It was quite entertaining to piece them all together.

EXAMS
The four papers we sat for in SMK USJ 13 were
Bahasa Malaysia
Sejarah
Pendidikan Moral
Physics

I'm not too sure about all of them. I have a feeling my Moral marks this time would be higher than last year since I DID study for this exam. My Sejarah is on thin ice. Physics, hopefully an A. Bahasa Malaysia, same as Physics. Four days more to go for exams and freedom (for now) awaits. what a quaint prospect.

waheyhey

the scene of the crime

the victims (look familiar? feels familiar?)

the murder weapon

I can see why. =.= (note: the GRAMMAR error)

pictures are not my own. courtesy of GOOGLE search. :D :D Exams are upon us. woohoo. all the best to all. just think of this:

post exam celebrations. :D credits to: http://www.flickr.com/photos/lagodigarda/1444324103/

all the best people. :D