explode

when you look back at things you wish you did everything differently. no, this is not the sort of thing where you say 'i wouldn't change' a thing. this is the one where you wish you didn't get the post, where you wish you didn't have the responsibility, where you wish you got out of it when you could. i could have been very different back then. i could have.

but i didn't. i let myself be taken in by the greed inside of me. that greed that only brought me what i did not need. i got the stuff i thought was important but not doing that could have been just as good, maybe even better. i took what i thought was the best. clearly i was wrong. too much work. too much responsibility. i hate it all most days.

the steps that you have to take to get what you want. or at least what you think you want. need some advice? start cracking that skull of yours to see what it is you actually want. what will not burden you in the future. something that will instead propel you to look forward in life. don't buy into what your teachers say or who you want to 'beat'. do what you can cope with or you'll end up hating everything till you die.